I don't know if I'm hungry or not, I feel like I am but I actually have no clue. I won't grab a bite though, will go to sleep soon, don't won't to eat before you sleep no.

 

Today's been a pretty good day besides what happened earlier today (what a nutter), but yeah good day.

 

I realized something really funny about myself this night. I was literally so sad with Mark because he hadn't texted me goodnight (I'm so silly) and I was like sad for an hour then something happened. I heard Run The World by Beyoncé in my head and I was like fuck yeah girlpower, then I heard I Don't Need A Man by The Pussycat Dolls and I was like "yeeaaah I don't need a man" and I told myself how good I was and how beautiful I am. And the moment when I was closing my eyes to sleep without those darn goodnight texts Mark actually texted me and I was like "I DON'T NEED YOU, I'M AN INDEPENDET WOMAN SO LEAVE". I never said that though..... I really need him in my life. (If you read this Mark, remember that I will always love you

It was so funny that I went from a desperate girlfriend to a cocky independent woman in like on hour! I think I feel a little more patient and not to be so needy all the time. I can actually live a life myself if I so needed to, but I don't want to though. I want to share it with Mark.

 

I'm just so happy and I think I know who's behind that, my lovely boyfriend who I actually really need. He always make me laugh and make me feel so loved and happy (every girl should have someone like him). I actually spoke to him on the phone an hour ago and he's such a nutter! He was doing laundry and a guy walked in and Mark just started to shout on him "OH THAT'S A NICE TSHIRT, THAT'S A REALLY NICE TSHIRT!!! SOOOOOO COLORFUL, SOOOO MANY COLORS!!! MAN IT'S LIKE 8 COLORS ON YOUR SHIRT!! SO COLORFUL!!!" and I couldn't stop myself from laughing. Made my day.